now it's two oclock in the morning...like usuall..chenjia slept after the long phone talk with his galefriend...nai chong went to bed after reading his buk..now i am the only one awake in this rum now..juz feel like writing sth..
tday juz went for the SMO open section..it's ok for me to do very badly cuz i never expect from that..but it juz give a stronger feeling that i am realli out of the prc circle in this school..cuz after that we went for the physics course..when i sat at the back row..i realise that i onli noe one out of the thirty ppl down there..and everyone was involved in their discussion in the groups....it's a very weird feeling when u dun noe anione that u r supposed to noe..
also along the way i realli feel that i am alreadi far behind them .when the ppl talk about some name of the paradox or principle..i was like wat the hell is that..while other ppl can give a lof of comments and analysis on it...from this pt i realli tink i am too commited to other things and it's realli the time to sit down and catch up..
however ..the council sessions are going to start this Saturday while guitar club also starts the preparation for SYF next year...i am realli in a severe lack of time and energy...i should have done a proper plan beforehand....
also for the council..it's quite true that we r too complacent and self-centred..we were thinking that everyone in the school realli respect council and give us the full support which is not the case..at least from the feedbacks i get...a lot of ppl juz regard the councilors as a group of retarded ppl who onli noe how to cheer .dance
sing school songs onli...
it's again for me quite a unpleasant signal cuz i tink we realli spend a lot of time and energy..it is realli true that we have tried our veryvery best..but if ppl realli cannot appreciate the effort..no one can say anithing...

ok..tday crap quite a lof..actualli nothing much..juz to express my feeling...
now go and mug le.....